In Loving Memory of
Muhammad Anver Beig
1939 - 2005
40 Memories that I will Never Forget...
by Fatimah Noor Beig
1. I will never forget the immense strength and courage Abu Jee possessed when dealing with his illness. He always put on a brave face and was always attentive to doctors discussing his condition. He would ask us to research more about the cancers that were weakening his body (but not his soul!)
2. I will never forget how Abu Jee always used to say "I cannot thank Allah enough…" He exhibited so much taqwah. When he was ill from 2002-2005, he did not tell his family or friends, in fear that Allah (SWT) would be displeased with him for complaining about his health after 62 years of a healthy and happy living.
3. I will never forget how Abu Jee always listened to both sides of the story and always encouraged healthy discourse within the family. Every word out of Abu Jee's mouth was a word of a wise man. When he did speak, he spoke with gentle words quoting Quran/Hadith and with sincerity and love in his hearts for all of us.
4. I will never forget how Ami Jee and Abu Jee were like the dynamic duo when it came to parenting. Their love for each other was also very evident as Abu Jee would always be kind to her, joke with her and would frequently bring home roses. Ami Jee in return had the patience and strength to dedicate whole-heartedly three and a half years of her life to taking care of her husband. She fought for him and never backed down, sometimes she seemed to know more than the nurses and even challenged the doctors- go Ami!
5. I will never forget how Abu Jee would embarrass us by talking about us and our specific achievements to mere strangers, acquaintances and or friends.
6. I will never forget the look on Abu's face, his high fives and our secret handshakes, when I told him happy news
7. I will never forget how charismatic Abu Jee was, especially playing MC at Qudsia Baji's wedding. I remember being excited about the day when Abu Jee would be able to speak and greet guests as an MC at my own wedding.
8. I will never forget how difficult I was many times especially when I was younger. Abu Jee always had my side and defended me no matter how much I hurt him especially during our friendly sibling quarrels.
9. I will never forget Abu Jee's creative and clever mind in thinking of amazing slogans when it came to the infamous rallies that we all participated in. He was always the ahead of the gang (see scrapbook for proof!)
10. I will never forget how we had to do our speeches for the annual speech competitions before him (podium and all!). Abu would always say without fail, "Fatimaaah! clarity! I don't hear clarity in your voice."
11. I will never forget how when we went to the store or a mall, how Abu Jee would find the nearest bench and sit on it and read his duas/write side notes or highlight important parts in the book he was reading; or when we would go on family outings and Abu Jee would rush out before Ami Jee to get the passenger seat of the car so that he could read his books.
12. I will never forget how Abu Jee was a walking map. Whenever we would be lost or in traffic, we only needed to describe our location to Abu Jee and he knew every time how to find our way back or find a way out.
13. I will never forget how Abu Jee had to drop and pick me and Maryam up from St. John's every day and get to the office 3 hrs earlier than usual every day and have to sit through morning rush hour and then wait around the office to pick us up at 8 pm at school for three years.
14.I will never forget how Abu Jee never wasted his time; even with family over he spent a respectable amount of time with them and then went back to his books or editing Mirror articles and news on the computer.
15. I will never forget how Abu Jee always wanted to learn from us. He never wanted us to just fix the problems he encountered on the computer but he wanted us to teach him how we did it. We would get impatient and laugh at him because he was so slow!
16. I will never forget Abu Jee's kind heart and compassion towards strangers. He was a nameless helping hand to so many charities, masajids, Islamic projects, orphans, widows, and needy families. Most of his charity work was done in secret even from all of us. He did not care for people to look at him with awe, he wanted his reward to be only with Allah. This is why he never wanted his name anywhere on his projects.
17. I will never forget Abu Jee's passion to do good works; whether it be for Mirror, compiling "Wisdom from the sages of the ages", or "For us to Act," distributing Quran's and having them in his trunk for chance encounters with people who might need them, or ordering Maududi (RA) tafseer sets from anyone who would come from Pakistan for free distribution, etc.
18. I will never forget how proud Abu Jee was when Maryam and I got our Masters. Abu Jee encouraged excellence in all aspects of our lives especially in education, both Islamic and secular.
19. I will never forget how Abu Jee would always give me great encouragement and advice in my YM work especially when he would say, "follow-up is key!" When I would complain to him about our financial status, he would immediately ask me to provide him with all the receipts so that he could pay them off. When I complained to him about our lack of publicity, he told me to get the information to him so that he could give YM the centerpiece in the upcoming Mirror issue.
20. I will never forget how calm, patient, and resilient Abu Jee was in times of hardship, and sorrow. We would be upset and emotional, especially when the doctors would make empty promises to send him home. Many times he would spend a month in the hospital, and never lost his patience and sense of humor and optimism. What gave us the right to complain?
21. I will never forget how much I would beg Abu Jee to get me a PT Cruiser every time we saw one on the road no matter how much he told me that American cars were a bad investment. I got one in Aug 2005 after I finished the scrapbook as Abu Jee had secretly told Umar to get it for me. Now every time I drive in it, I think about how cool it would have been for me to drive him around in it.
22. I will never forget how organized Abu Jee was with all of the highlighting, underlining, bolding he would do on the word documents he would work on. (I would laugh at him and now I do the same thing!)
23. I will never forget how I used to always pray for him and for his safety . I was so happy to see him when he walked into the door from a long day at work. I would hurry up to give him a hug and bring him a glass of water (because Abu loved water!)
24. I will never forget when he was in the hospital, no matter how much I knew he wanted us to stay with him, he always wanted us to sacrifice our time with him and go to the institute or home. After all, we were the "joy" of his life as he would say and every time we were with him, he would say "I feel like I'm in heaven!"
25. I will never forget how the nurses and doctors said that HE taught them about patience. They always appreciated his optimism and will to live despite all the painful treatments he would undergo.
26. I will never forget how even when Abu Jee was actually home and able sit up was alert and able to move around, he would still stay up and sacrifice required sleep and do Mirror work on his computer.
27. I will never forget how we would bring each issue of the Mirror to Abu Jee in the hospital and he would still analyze and critique it with much passion even though he was barely able to sit up on his bed.
28. I will never forget how we used to call Abu Jee a "softy" we would say, "abu Jee, you are soft as ice cream!" Abu Jee would smile and laugh because he knew it!
29. I will never forget how despite the effects of all the medicine in his system, low platelets and white blood cells which made weak, the numerous markings of needles all over his arms, the obvious pain that shot through his body even with the the slightest touch, the damaged vocal cords that barely made his voice audible, and of course the chemo, he was alert for me and his nurses and was always trying to smile and make jokes.
30. I will never forget everything Abu Jee taught me in his short life. Because of him I have tried to become a well-rounded individual and because of his constant reminders to us to always thank Allah and to make dua to Him to give us more, I have found success in my life- alhamdulillah!
31. I will never forget the last meal we shared together- One Friday instead of the regular Friday tuna sandwich from Subway, I surprised him with pizza from Pizza Hut and just the way he liked it, with mushrooms and onions. We had a blast eating the whole pie! This was the last time Abu Jee ate solid food.
32. I will never forget how heartbroken and sad I was for Abu Jee knowing that he had three grandchildren on the way but he knew he would not be able to see them in this life. Within six months of his passing away, we welcomed to this world Hayaa Iman, Najib and Husna Noor.
33. I will never forget how thankful I am to Allah (SWT) for giving me the ability to start work on and complete this scrapbook so that everyone can remember his good life and let him be an inspiration to us and for all the generations to come, ameen.
34. I will never forget how Abu Jee made funny faces at me when I could not look at him after the doctors told him that they could do no more and that he should go home and spend time with his family.
35.I will never forget the pain I felt waking up the next morning wishing I never had to wake up, knowing that my biggest nightmare was coming true.
36. I will never forget the morning of April 13th and how I felt sick to my stomach and left school early to be with Abu Jee.
37.I will never forget how Abu Jee was truly the greatest human being I have ever known. May Allah (SWT) allow him to build a palace in Jannatul firdos and may he get the rewards of a mujahid who strived in his life only to please his creator, ameen.
38.I will never forget how Abu Jee always practiced what he preached.
39.I will never forget how Abu would always be in constant thought and always acted on those thoughts. When we would tell Abu Jee to relax, take a break and have some fun, he would say that he would rest when he dies. (May Allah swt give him lots of rest after living a life of unrest, ameen)
40. I will never forget how proud I am and how much honor I feel to be his daughter.
This page is created by Fatimah Noor Beig, April 2006.
Thanks to be here!